This week has been incredibly humbling. On Monday, I went to the doctor to have my cast removed. I was nervous, but eager to graduate to the next stage in my recovery – the boot. I prepared myself for it to be strange, telling myself that it was going to be skinny, hairy, and scale-y; but still, today was disorienting. When I saw my right lower leg for the first time in 6 weeks, I was struck by how it looked like someone else’s leg. Suddenly my sense of my body was called int

I realized today that I hadn’t done an Alexander Technique assignment that was due yesterday – that I had completely forgotten about it. I felt a dread, and then quickly sent myself into a fury, not knowing wether to continue on with the GTA grading I was doing, switch to editing my dance film project (which I had planned to transition to 30 minutes ago), or move to my Alexander homework that I had just figured out was already a day late. I stood up and began scooting across

The injury saga continues… I took this photo last Friday to send to my mom after a post-op check up. I had just then been fitted into a new split that was to last a week. The second I stood up to transition to my knee scooter, I felt an intense sharp pulling sensation in my tendon (the one that had been repaired a week prior). I said this to the technician, who had fitted my splint. He advised me to let it dry (24hrs), and then use mychart to contact them if I’m still feeling

This semester has been a purposeful deepening of life-long iterative practice of intentional, self-reflective adaptation toward the person I want to be within community. By seeking out wisdom from deeply intelligent and generous teachers of somatic anti-racism, I have been exposed to a layered and fluid web of self-reflective, embodied practice that leads practitioners on a pathway toward healthier selves, relationships, communities, and societies. My intention is to practice

The following is an outline of the embodied practice session I facilitated for the white-identifying members of my research seminar class on 3/23/21. It is a sequence of somatic experiences intended to guide white folx into noticing their bodies’ reactions to conversations around race, and to notice how those reactions are effecting their ability to support anti-racism efforts. Below is a brief introduction to the work we did together and some discussion about why portions of

During our week 3 meeting for LISTEN IN, our white working group discussed and worked through some somatic practice focusing on our symbolic bodies. Our symbolic bodies as in what we, as white bodies, represent in a context of racism and white supremacy. We conceptualized this by thinking in scales: if 1 is the personal body (who we are on a personal level), then 5 is the symbolic body (all that is attached to our body including history, culture, race, social positionally, pr

An example of an embodied practice to notice and counter white supremacy in my body: Today I noticed white supremacy in my head. I felt a furrowing of my brow and tension across my forehead while considering the power that white bodies have. Was this defensiveness? Discomfort? Guilt? Skepticism? This I do not know, but I do know the tension, the bracing. Placing my hand over my forehead, I considered what that place represents in white culture: the Cartesian split between min

Something I wrote a couple months ago… 2.19.21 This week I was placed in a breakout room with a fellow attendee of LISTEN IN to discuss Audre Lorde’s Transformation of Silence into Language and Action. While discussing, the two of us connected over similar experiences with silence/inaction, realizing that we both struggle with anxiety. We noted that for both of us, anxiety and white silence/inaction have very similar physiological effects in the body: the rumbling/turning of

White supremacy lives in my body. It lives in the way I treat my body. In the way I discipline, chastise, abuse, negate, belittle, and train my body. White body supremacy—the notion that there is a supreme, perfect, ideal, white body. The notion that my goal is to be that body. (Menakem). How do I begin to challenge this notion? How do I being to change the practices, habits, and deep thinking that intertwine me with white supremacy culture? “I often feel I am trapped inside